"Something I Can Never Have" is the fifth track by

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band Nine Inch Nails from the 1989 debut album, ''

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''. According to

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, the song deals with

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themes. A "deconstructed" version of the song was also included in the live album '' And All That Could Have Been''. The accompanying live music video, with

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was also released. A version of the song with an alternate ending was used in the 1994 film ''

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Background

Trent Reznor Michael Trent Reznor (born May 17, 1965) is an American musician, singer, songwriter, record producer, and composer. He serves as the lead vocalist, multi-instrumentalist, and principal songwriter of the industrial rock band Nine Inch Nails, wh ...

co-produced the track in

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with John Fryer, although Reznor "kind of backed away" from it. He felt that Fryer's production gave the track a "dreamy quality", as the piano is heavily filtered and features a large amount of reverb. The track also features elements of unused backing tracks by

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, a music collective that Fryer was part of; while these were initially included by accident, both Reznor and Fryer felt they fit well in the track.

Reception

Tom Breihan from

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gave a positive review to the song, stating that the song portrays "an absolute mastery" with "its haunted, minimal piano figure and a few hushed synth tones slowly, letting in sputtering static, faraway door-slam drums, and quiet little counter-melodies." When the song was re-released in 2006, Rob Mitchum referred to it as a "' Goodbye Blue Sky' rip-off". In 2020, ''

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'' and '' Billboard'' ranked the song number seven and number five, respectively, on their lists of the greatest Nine Inch Nails songs.

Covers

This song has been covered by Dutch

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band,

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, in its 2012 album ''Kindred Spirits'', and by the band

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for ''Underworld: Evolution'' OST. In July 2014,

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covered the song on her Unrepentant Geraldines Tour. A version of the song was used in the fifth episode of the HBO series ''

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'' in 2016.

References

Nine Inch Nails songs 1989 songs Song recordings produced by Flood (producer) Song recordings produced by Keith LeBlanc Song recordings produced by Adrian Sherwood Songs written by Trent Reznor TVT Records singles Songs about depression Songs about suicide Song recordings produced by Trent Reznor {{1980s-song-stub